about getting a farm

No, that's not entirely true. I still REALLY want one. But I'm trying not to wrap my life around the idea. I've been putting life on hold in a way. I've avoided getting Adeline involved in things that we'd have to potentially pull her out of if we moved. We've promised her a dog for a year when this and if that, waiting for the space a dog wouldn't intrude too much. I haven't made plans to attend events in the near future. I've packed away most the toys, craft, and sewing stuff so the house stays neater for listing. I've spent way too much time searching listings, making lists, and redecorating (in my head) potential homes. I've wasted money on books to teach me more about farm life and then packed them away. But it keeps getting pushed to the next month, the next season, the next year.
I want community, and I want my kids to have community. And I'm not going to wait anymore til we're settled and closer to family. I'm going to plan some homeschool events for the next few months and hit the "I will attend" button on FB more often. I want the kids to feel free to make crafty messes and I want to make some of my own-so I'm going to allow it. I want to expose my kids to nature and animal care so I'm going to find Adeline a dog and take lots of drives to parks where we can spread out and run free. I want to expose my kids to some culture-so even though there will be longer drives involved and probably nights in roadside motels, I'm going to attend a few music festivals, and big city museums and galleries.
I care about providing an environment for my kids that's rich with fun learning experiences and the potential to make friends-I don't care anymore about that being a farm or even a house in RC. For all I care we can stay in this house forever but I refuse to be stuck here anymore.